mh--, suicidal tendencies
Why can’t I just die. I don’t want to deal with all the fear of what will be in a week, in a month, in a year, in a decade. I don’t want to be constantly thrown back the second I feel like I actually make progress. I finally want to stop disappointing people because my mind just can’t find a status quo. I could not control that I was born broken and useless and destined to suffer at my own hands. I can at least control how I die.
