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Irenes (many) @ireneista@irenes.space
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in any sort of creative work, there's an important question

who are you doing it for?

there are several possible answers. for the money? for the crowd? to make the world better? each of these answers leads you to draw your sense of meaning in a different way, which affects when you feel fulfilled and when you feel drained
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additional meis meiing meifully meihapsulating meibe @mei@amazonawaws.com
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@ireneista I have a good answer! It's therapeutic for me.

I'm autistic and if I get out of my comfort zone or am stressed in the wrong way it can be really overwhelming to view the world in an unusual way - so programming for me is the practice of making sense. Of spray-painting random strokes on all these ideas that feel so foreign & established; timeless and unchangeable.

By writing a partial inaccurate implementation of some research paper or graphics library I get to really experience how I shove up against those ideals. Sometimes I'll really believe why something is done in a certain way, but still resist it because it's out of reach for my skill level. And that's wonderful to just kind of wallow in.

Learning at whatever pace my mended little brain can handle ​🖤
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Irenes (many) @ireneista@irenes.space
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@mei definitely an excellent answer :) 💜✊
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additional meis meiing meifully meihapsulating meibe @mei@amazonawaws.com
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@ireneista it was so fun to write too!! like i get worried about putting a take like this up (publicly) but actually it is just in line with consensus reality :)
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Irenes (many) @ireneista@irenes.space
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@mei it sounds fun, for sure!
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