like i'm just starting to realize how this whole "i made a really cool thing on the computer" => "i need to show it to everyone" => "woah it's not so cool anymore, i need to do more" cycle was perpetuated for so long.
i genuinely had a lot of fun and i still find this thing really cool, but it's because i'm not helpless to this cycle that i get to keep some of that joy for myself
