flori_ava_star:~:cursor_blinking: :made-with-estrogen: :verifiedlesbian: (@star)

chaos(c3d2), mh-, drama, venting, violence

I still don't quite know what to do, now weeks after being threatened with violence by one person from my local hackerspace.

I am genuinely scared that they'll wait for me around a corner somewhere and then do bad things to me. And so far, it seems like the majority of other people at this space don't give a shit. That person is still there at that space and hasn't had to face any consequences for neither these threats, not the smear campaign against me which they participated in.

And I don't know what to do. I don't really know where to go, or who to talk to about this in a way that will actually help at all. I feel lost and powerless. Maybe, this is just how transfemmes are treated in this space.

chaos(c3d2), mh-, drama, venting, violence

@star

I think those running the hacker space should be held accountable for doing fuck all about this, if they've known what occured and decided not to take it seriously.

re: chaos(c3d2), mh-, drama, venting, violence

@star

chaos(c3d2), mh-, drama, venting, violence

@star aww flori that sounds horrible ((((you dont deserve this

chaos(c3d2), mh-, drama, venting, violence

@zenmaya

chaos(c3d2), mh-, drama, venting, violence

I have been doing significantly worse these past weeks compared to the time before all this went down

chaos(c3d2), mh-, drama, venting, violence

And yes, there are some blessed creatures who do seem to care about. But the room was full of people who heard what $person said to me (explicit threats of violence), and yet there's been no repercussions so far. And my question is: What in the nine hells is taking so long? What else needs to happen for this to be taken seriously enough to be addressed in a time sensitive manner? Can anyone just threaten someone else with violence and then experience no repercussions for it? It makes this space really not feel like one where I can stay, or where people want me to stay.

I've said it enough times in the plenary session already, but this entire smear campaign against me has really gotten to me; even before the dreaded 3h war tribunal against me.

And noone has experienced any repercussions for that either. It's fucking disgusting, saddening, and it genuinely frightens me, because I have not been harassed once, but twice within the span of 2 weeks, and from my POV, since then, nothing has happened

chaos(c3d2), mh-, drama, venting, violence

@star oh fuck, I've seen this happen way too many times. feel hugged (if wanted) and feel free to chat me up (Signal and Telegram in bio, or DM) if you need someone to talk to.

re: chaos(c3d2), mh-, drama, venting, violence

@star sorry that's happening to you. seeking accountability for bad behavior through any CCC-adjacent structure is unfortunately a path of endless frustration and disillusionment and there is a long lineage of (trans) women who either got bullied for speaking out or left in frustration. i'm here if you need to talk. we have tea, coffee, cookies and cream.

re: chaos(c3d2), mh-, drama, venting, violence

@fisk