flori_ava_star:~:cursor_blinking: :made-with-estrogen: (@star)

drugs, adhd-, healthcare-+

Besides working as intended, MPH gave me the ability to notice my own symptoms. I always wondered why I am like really depressed and not able to do any of the things I wanted to do. And now, observing myself on MPH, I'm becoming quite sure that this "wanting to do but 0 brain points to spend" is the reason for that specific type of depression that I feel, not the other way around (depression causing dysfunction). That was a major

feeling for me (btw. of course @amy_psycho_bitch helped me figure this out, just like she's been helping me with other, life changing discoveries I make about myself, all this time I knew her. She is such an incredible cutie)

And now I just lack the medicine to do anything about it. I mean, I'll get it "soon", hopefully, but ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsdfjkfhdjkgkl